Why do I blog?

To get more traffic? Nope. If I want more hits, I’ll write a political, entertainment or religious blog. I don’t get paid for it, and as you can see there’s not even a single ad on it. Daily journal? For fucks sake, who bother to read daily happening of a person that has nothing to offer, not to mention that I don’t even have time to update it on daily basis nor on hourly basis like most typical blog you can find here. Narcissistic? Not entirely, well, maybe a little. But no one, I repeat, NO ONE can’t really wander off from narcissism when they blog. Without your personal touch and a fair dose of selfishness, your blog will lose it’s own personality. 

Seriously, why do I blog?

I can only think of one reason at the moment, that is, I blog to just keep my sanity alive. It’s a kind of escapism when my usual drugs don’t do me no good. When caffeine, nicotine and music fails me, I blog. When I have something to say on facebook or twitter, but restricted by the limited characters allowed, I blog. And as a self-proclaimed so-called creative myself, I always need a creative outlet to manifest my inner thoughts and feelings. 

Blogging is also a channel for me to discover a deeper understanding of why I feel the way I do about certain topic. Usually when I write, I as often as not, trying to work something through in my own mind; some posts here arise as a reflection of difficult situation that I’m having, my perspective on my surroundings or simply questions which I’m in a fight with. Being my own best critique, I always ask myself questions in a truly Socratic manner, which as we all know, will end up with more questions. But, most of the time I find that blogging and the writing process helps me to clarify and refine my thoughts. While researching on a more serious post, I often become aware and learn something new along the way, or in certain cases have my preconceptions challenged and provoked. It’s the kind of exercise that I have deep affection with and is hard to get that in my daily life, except when I blog. It is yet another medium for me to be honest with myself. It’s the only time and place where the mask is off, and only truth is spoken.

Or I can just simply end this post by saying “I blog because I can”. I think, I’ll stick with that at the moment.